There's one sad truth in life I've found
While journeying east and west -
The only folks we really wound
Are those we love the best.
We flatter those we scarcely know,
We please the fleeting guest,
And deal full many a thoughtless blow
To those who love us best.
~Ella Wheeler Wilcox
The sadness of this reality sinks in like a tonne of bricks. How can one actually be so blind?
It's only when you finally realise this when you begin to cherish the one you love. It's a sad and vicious circumstance which occurs too many.
By that time, you would have reached the end of the line. Your loved one has been battered beyond recognition. You no longer see the person you fell in love with in front of you. You see a cold, expressionless human, the glimmer in the eyes begs to know why you could have been so heartless. The spark of love has died, buried under tonnes and tonnes of bad memories and hatred.
You try to make amends to fix the problem. You have regretted all your actions, asked for forgiveness but to no avail. There stands before you, an empty shell, of the person who would sacrifice his/her life for you. He/she looks at you, like a stranger, immovable by your emotions, unnerved by your remorse, doubtful of your words. You look pathetic, but how can you not be, as you rescue and salvage whatever is left. Its times like this when the people of the biggest egos get shattered into millions of pieces.
You believe your intentions to be good, but that is only to your opinion. You treated the one you love harshly, to turn them into battle hardened warriors, just like yourself.
Not everyone needs to be treated like that, especially your loved ones.
- If only you were more sensitive to his/her feelings.
- If only you had understood his/her intentions.
- If only you had another chance.
The ‘if only’ anthem plays on solemnly in the midst and dies away, as the one you love walks away from you.
With regret, you stumble to your knees, your heart aching so much, you wished you had never done what you have done to that person. You wish for the one you love to understand why you were like that. But the final card has been dealt, it’s too late for amends.
If only, if only, if only, if only, if only, if only,………………