A Dark Moment In My Life

Well, 31st August 2009 marked another year of independence, but that marked one dark moment in my history. Perhaps a few of you already know that I've got face palsy. To be more specific it's called Bell's Palsy. Here's a slice of information from Wikipedia:

Bell's palsy
is a paralysis of cranial nerve VII (the facial nerve) resulting in inability to control facial muscles on the affected side. Several conditions can cause a facial paralysis, e.g., brain tumor, stroke, and Lyme disease. However, if no specific cause can be identified, the condition is known as Bell's palsy. Named after Scottish anatomist Charles Bell, who first described it, Bell's palsy is the most common acute mononeuropathy (disease involving only one nerve) and is the most common cause of acute facial nerve paralysis.

Bell's palsy is defined as an idiopathic unilateral facial nerve paralysis, usually self-limiting. The trademark is rapid onset of partial or complete palsy, usually in a single day.

It is thought that an inflammatory condition leads to swelling of the facial nerve. The nerve travels through the skull in a narrow bone canal beneath the ear. Nerve swelling and compression in the narrow bone canal are thought to lead to nerve inhibition, damage or death. No readily identifiable cause for Bell's palsy has been found.

Doctors may prescribe anti-inflammatory and anti-viral drugs. Early treatment is necessary for the drug therapy to have effect. The effect of treatment is still controversial. Most people recover spontaneously and achieve near-normal to normal functions. Many show signs of improvement as early as 10 days after the onset, even without treatment.

Often the eye in the affected side cannot be closed. The eye must be protected from drying up, or the cornea may be permanently damaged resulting in impaired vision. In some cases denture wearers experience some discomfort.

To understand nerves, refer to diagram or Biology book.

It was real torture for the past few days. I had drinking disorder. Imagine drinking something and having it leak out from the left side of your mouth. But that's just half the problem. Imagine not being able to sleep. HOW THE !#@*&#$% AM I SUPPOSE TO SLEEP? Seriously, I couldn't sleep. It was like hell. I had to sit for an exam, half dead and go home, hoping for the best. At this moment, I would say, "If I just close my eyes, all the pain will be gone." Oh, what a pile of BS.... I wake up the next day and the same continues, over and over again.

Tell me to relax? This is the only relaxation I'll get. My blog and I. Other than that, you won't want to know my daily routine. No catnaps, no slouching and no letting my hair down. What the heck, this palsy didn't come by itself. First, I got a fever, then a migraine and now this. What next? A falling grand piano? Sigh..... Fretting isn't going to bring me anywhere. Who am I kidding, it's like the old saying, "Either put up or shut up."

Tiny little reminder to all, my mood is in a slightly unstable position. Temporarily. So if any flabbergasting, toe peeling, shit eating retard says another pedophillic remark about my face I swear I'm gonna rip his face off and use it as a bloody napkin.... It's not funny being called names because of a disability.

So please, if you see someone with a face defect, don't be cruel. He's human too. It's either that or he has a gun....Whichever makes you feel happy.
Before I sign off, here are some pictures of how I look like now.

Notice how my whole lip is slanted.....

A novel way to close my eyes when I sleep. It's bloody uncomfortable.

That's an infrared lamp. It's supposed to help me. XD!!!

Toodles.... Til' next time.


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